a better month, December

last month was a month, filled with mixed emotions.
this month, im pretty sure, it is gonna be a month filled with happiness & love.
(:

i have been meeting all my secondary school friends,
and i just seems to enjoy being with them.
the laughter, the joy and the gossips.
how wonderful life can be with them around.

3 months of study period has finally come to an end.
however, i missed my group 7.
we had a wonderful farewell dinner at seoul garden,
and tons of photo-takings at bugis.
i hope, we can meet up more often when school starts.
we will all be seperated & we will be working for the same common goal.
which is to mould the next generation.
so excited that i can't wait for work to start.

how to handle stress if stress comes along?

let's wait & see.

birthday seems to be just another day

have been trying to plan things out on my birthday.
but it seems that im so tired to plan anything.
hahaha, so i scare all the plans will fail.
but, let's pray that everything will be smooth.

25th nov is my actual day.
i shall say, its my big 21st.
but, i would like to thank my mummy & daddy.
they raised me up for 21 years and counting on.
they are always there for me & always being supportive in whatever i do.
i appreciate their love, and care.

in the end,
i may be lazy to celebrate my birthday.

A teacher's story

i never thought a teacjer will impact a student's life so deeply.
i always thought i wanted to be a teacher as it was my primary school amibition.
however, i was wrong.
after watching a video of this teacher impacting other's lives,
i realised that i want to impact people's lives too.

being a teacher may not be easy,
but i believe, i can make it through being a teacher who is able to impact people's lives.

everyone thought that i came to this career 'cos of the money & the rice-bowl.
i can proudly tell you that you are wrong.
i came to this career path because i want to be one who can help others.
i want to be a teacher who can use my stories to impact others.
(:

i love this video.
it made me tear & it made me realise the importance of happiness & love.
it also made me remember of my beloved grand-ma.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=armP8TfS9Is&feature=related

my 21st!

hi guys, its been so long since i updated my blog.
hahaha, i have been pretty busy with school assignments and workloads.
but, im still doing well.
(:

by the way, my 21st is coming and it's on the way.
hahaha, i wont be having a BIG celebration like many others.
i will just have a simple dinner with my family and some relatives.
i will be going out with cousins for party, and friends may join in too.
anyway, my mum and dad bought me a really nice necklace.
and it looks like a cross.
my God, when i saw it, my heart just melt.
they bought a cross for me.
awesome parents and amazing prayer!
thanks mum & dad.
i love you.

" mum & dad, my 21st is not for myself. it is actually for the both of you who have brought me up for 21 years. it's amazing how you can tolerate me and give in to me all the time. i really appreciate all the simple things you have done for me. like sending me to and fro from school, always preparing breakfast and dinner for me and more. i just love moments when you are always there to encourage me. thanks, mum & dad! "

i decided to get myself my own 21st gift with my salary.
hahaha, i decided to get a camera.
i have yet to choose but my camera will be red in color.
i want it to be the first gift i bought for myself with my full time salary.
it may not cost a lot, but i just love using my own money to get the gift myself.

and, i decided to learn my driving in Dec.
i may be lazy but i really have to get my license.
i may have thought too much, but i hope i can achieve the dream.
i wish to get a car by Dec' 2010.
it may seems like a big dream, but i just want to aim for it.
i plan it to be a Volkswagen golf, red in colour with sun roof.
hahaha, let me work hard for this amazing dream of mine.

like i say, i may think too BIG or too much, but it's my determination that i want to achieve what i want.

in life, it is all about determination.

a long week.

have been studying for the past few weeks.
and seriously, i think all my "teachers" should stop teaching.
they are making the whole class to doze off.
some are grandparents and some are already at the age of 75.
i feel so sleepy whenever i go to class, but to keep myself really awake,
i will always bring food in to eat and snack.
shit, getting fatter with all lessons continuing to be like that.
but, i really love the experiences they have in schools.
some are teachers and some are principals.
their stories seems so awesome & i really can't wait to start teaching.

many asked me why i want to be a teacher and not to continue my studies since im only 20.
honestly, i have tried to applied for NIE 5 times but all got rejected.
so i decided to give this scheme a try and i got in.
being a teacher was my dream and ambition since i was young.
i just love to teach and to motivate my kids.
i may be young, but i believe i can do a great job in my teaching line.
amazingly, my grandma will be proud of me as i promised her i will be a teacher one day.
grandma, i made it!
(:

parents are in sydney so it seems that im having tons of freedom.
i just have to do housework which are okay.
like washing of clothes, hanging of clothes and sometimes cleaning the house.
my brothers will cook and do the iron-ing themselves.
hehehe, it is a good training system for them.

just talked to my mum and dad through Skype.
and seriously, i think i need to sleep.
mum says my eyebags are really horrible.
it's true.
i haven't been resting well cos of many stuffs esp work and assignments.
i have tons of them and how i wish, i could just work instead of studying.
haix, but i believe what i study, i can apply them one day.

life has been the same as usual.
just miss those fun time with friends and gathering with friends.
i really do want to go out with them again for chill and drinks.
but there is always a barrier in me which i cant let go.
i dont know why.
i think the barrier is still fear.
fear of what? i dont know.
maybe just fear of losing friendship with them.

okay, lots of talking.
i need to go and work already.
see you guys and i will update soon about myself.
take care!

PS im taking my car license soon in NOV/DEC.

"eldest brother, if you do read my blog,
my 21st birthday is coming.
im happy if you are coming back on my birthday,
but i will be happier if i get a surprise from you on my birthday!
hehehe, i dont ask for much. only a camera! "

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i has always been wanting to update my life.
but i just seems to be too busy with work.

i just came back from an awesome camp.
it was like an adventure camp, and how i wish i could stay longer.
but, back to reality, im back from camp.

school has posted me for a 3 months training.
and currently, training has been quite alright for me.
except i have been feeling really tired during lesson.

friends are getting married.
i will be attending the wedding, but i think i will feel weird going.
however, i will still go and congrats them.

i have been skipping sundays.
i know, many may ask me why.
but seriously i dont know what makes me skip sundays.
could it be me wanting to shun and hide from everything?
or could it be me who lost faith and hope in Him?
i want to go back, but something always stop me from going back.
people seems to have change or maybe it is me who have changed.
Jesus, lead me back!

parents will be at sydney with my brother's family.
how i wish, i could go again.
but i decided to go hong kong or taiwan end of the year.
i want to use my own hard-earned money to go for the trip.
mum and dad, let's plan for a holiday that im able to afford for the both of you.

daddyben is going army soon.
God, i think im so gonna miss him.
whenever people says he's going army soon, i just want to tear.
these few months being with him was really fun and awesome.
he took good care of me and has always been there for me.
without him, i wont get to know a whole new bunch of awesome wondeful friends.
it may be a short-term friendship or a long-term friendship.
but i truly take them as an awesome bunch of buddies/brothers.

have been meeting shir- these few days.
im glad to see her being herself and always bullying me.
i want to go out with you more often and let's party like crazy.
hahaha, i really want to play like mad!

met up with cousins like jonathan, justin and etc.
weird to meet up with them, but we always have countless of stuffs to talk about.
i always enjoy having cousin's gatherings.
it just seems so relax and fun.
jie, i want you to be back soon.

i miss my friends like ailing, peiling, ebon, shuting and etc.
life without all of you have been so much different.
i want to meet up with all of you ASAP!
there's so much that i want to share with all of you.
i want to share with you about my life as a teacher and my life as a happy girl.
can we meet up for dinner soon?

yup, metee called.
weird i believe.
but we did chat a little before he hang up that phone.
he wants me to visit him end of dec with a group of friends.
but i dont think im able to go as my teachers group have a drive to msia trip.
so im pretty scare it clashes.
i think, i got to make him sad again.
sorry, metee!

i will be planning to take my license by end of this year.
before my birthday.
how i wish to get a car by next year if im able to afford!
(:

people, i gtg.
night & LOVES.

how i wish

there were many thoughts floating in my mind.
this morning when i came to school, it was raining cats and dogs.
i felt cold yet i have to drag myself to school.

as i came to my table, my laptop was wet.
shit! which means it was spoilt.
but thank God, the technician repaired it in time for me to use.
how wonderful God is.

still feeling down and lousy,
i came acrosee my brother's blog.
didnt have the time to finish reading the whole article,
but how i wish, i am teaching in a christian school.
the feeling of teaching in a christian school will be different, i think.
God works wonder in people and environment.

i dont mean to complain, but i just want to vent out my lousy mood.
i really feel lousy within even though people around me are encouraging me.
i thank all encouragements, but this time its me who should be strong.

(:
Jesus loves me.